About Me

Welcome to my space.

My name is Monika and I am the founder of Monika Knitter Therapies.

I was born in Poland in the 1980s, growing up in a time and culture where survival meant blending in and being a ‘good girl’. As an extremely sensitive child, I quickly learned that safety equalled conformity—I followed instructions, kept myself small, and concentrated on the needs of others while abandoning my own. I learned that I had to protect myself by looking strong on the outside, yet, deep inside, I was scared. Navigating that oppressive landscape was my first first hand experience of how we learn to suppress our authentic selves, disconnecting from our bodies and emotions just to stay safe. It was a survival strategy that protected me then, but one that I carried for a very long time, which ultimately caused deep suffering.

In 2005, I took a one-year break from my studies and moved to Edinburgh. Here, my journey of self-discovery truly began. I started exploring altered states of consciousness through meditation and developed a deep interest in spirituality, massage, and other healing modalities. At the time, I was actively searching for ‘a cure’ for my own suffering, consumed by the intrusive question: ‘What is wrong with me?’ I was navigating high anxiety, deep self-doubt, rigid childhood beliefs, and perfectionism. It felt like I moved through life with a heavy ballast. Yet, the thought of therapy terrified me for a long time. I was scared of what I would find out about myself—worried it would simply confirm all the negative things I already believed. 

As I was always a very good listener, deep thinker, analysing life, patterns and existence and searching for answers for my own suffering, I decided to study Counselling. During the training, I began to gain a much deeper understanding of the human condition, connecting the dots with my own issues and finally felt ready to start therapy. After all, how could I become a therapist without experiencing how it actually works?

For the first time in my life, I was met with true acceptance, warmth, and non-judgement. In those conditions, I found a relief and connected with myself on a deeper emotional level than ever before. I learned that it wasn’t who I was that was the problem, but the way I adapted to the world around me, the self-limiting beliefs and unprocessed traumatic experiences that had kept me stuck in a loop of survival. The therapeutic process made a radical difference in how I felt and how I approached myself, rebuilding my self-confidence. As my own life truly started to change, I knew I wanted to support others on their own journey toward healing. 

If you are ready to experience a different kind of relationship—one where you are seen for who you are—I am here to walk alongside you.

More about how I work you can find HERE.